Changes, Hecticness and Parties

Woah long time since last post! SO a lot has happened like um.. I forgot lol! I've been so busy lately seeing movies and hanging out ect. So i'm officially switching schools again lol! And I'm going down to Atl to get my liscence soon thank god! :) I have exams coming up, oh track ended. We went to states and got 6th my 4 by 1 team placed and ended up doing a hell of a lot better than we were expected to do :). I'm packing for Costa Rica and Kenya since those trips are fastly approaching, I got all of my shots except one and I have to start taking Malaria pills soon which is creepy! What else happened... idk my life has just been hectic lately. But I love living in DC/Maryland there's so much more to do around here and it's more of a city than Atlanta is by a mile. I don't miss Atlanta as much anymore, not even the people really. I mean I'll always remember them but they're more part of my past and I'm looking towards the future and at least I realized what type of friendship we had now instead of later. I also decided to leave some old friendships. I was trying so hard to make them work but I've realized that maybe you can't really work out problems as big as we had. I'm making myself sick trying and really i don't need them as a friend. I wanted them as a friend but if that can't happen then that's too bad. I'll still call them if I'm around and hanging out in a really big group, I think, but otherwise if it's a small group or someone else isn't invited then I'm not inviting them. It's just not worth it to me anymore. So yes I must go back to my "busy busy busy" life. Oh and I will say that everyone should watch Glee next fall because it was so good last night! :)

Failure and Success

Should I write myself  out of the history books  and mark a place in time  for every chance you took  dont get me wrong  I know you've got your life in place  I've yet to take the hint someday  I'm sure I'll get the picture  Stop Waiting Up   When it all comes down  to a sunrise on the east side  will you be there to carry home  the remains of my wasted youth  this wasted time on you has left me  shaking in waiting,  shaking in waiting for something more 

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Get out, goodbye Get out of my life Goodnight  And you're hot, cold You're not available You run while I lose control I miss you Forever you'll stay gold You know I'm not getting by I've lost it, you're in my mind And everyday's the darkest of my life (life) (I never said I was the best thing for you)  Baby, where'd you go?  I need you here tonight  Singing myself to sleep And you're still my favorite melody It's been three weeks How long can this go on?  Singing myself to sleep And you're haunting every memory  Get out, goodbye, get out of my life 'cause I'm drowning (when I close my eyes) And I'm fallin' (can't breath tonight) And a story I fade to black inside (I never said I was the best thing for you)

How do I find myself in these situations? It's called idiocy because a smart person would've realized the danger, especially after being in the same situation, through out the past year, and would've avoided getting hurt. Yet, Alexis being her smart self once again dives into something albeit more slowly this time, just to find out what she thought was over was only "complicated", thanks for telling me before and then not responding after. I'm not sure if I can keep waiting, i've tried I really have but I'm done... Btw I have not broken my guy sabbatical, I have sucessfully avoided dating!