Bored of Your Love Meg & Dia feat. Tom Higgenson

 Did you think about what I said last night? Knowing you, you probably didn't. I could picture your face on the other side, completely oblivious. Do you really feel like this love is real? I wish I could join you. I'm bored of your love. I'm bored of your face. I'm bored of your random all over the place, attitude. I'm bored of you. So I thought about what you said last night, normally I probably wouldn't. But something you said kept me up all night. I tried to sleep, but I just couldn't. I hope you still feel like this love is for real. 'Cause I know that I do. I'm in love with your love. I'm in love with your face. In love with almost everything you say. Yes it's true, I'm in love with you. I wish you would put effort into trying to make this new. I would if you asked me I'd do anything for you. I wish we were strangers in all the excitement, we'd fall in love. Can I take you out, just this one last time, we could pretend I never met you. Well I'd love to, it sounds like a lovely time, but I'm sorry. I just can't let you. I'm bored of your love. I'm up to my neck in this mess and I'm sorry. I'll remember your love. Remember your face. When it's over and done it won't quite be the same without you. I'll remember you.

Love this song! :)

Lyrics: Penny For Your Thoughts

I've realized recently that I'm a lyrics person. My drama teacher in 7th grade asked once what we noticed first from a song... most people said beats or melody but I said lyrics. Lyrics speak to me and makes me feel and identify with the emotions the writer is trying to get across. This is why I have songs I like for dances (fluffy lyrics) and songs I listen to when I'm feeling a certain way. I was reading Alex DeLeon's blog and I realized he's one of the deepest people alive (overstatement a little bit, I could be clouded by my love) and I had an epiphany. The reason I love The Cab's music so much is that the lyrics reach out and touch my soul. I mean the melody is awesome and Ian, Cash, Marshal and Johnson are amazing! But, it's the lyrics that I love the most because it draws me in and makes me think about stuff. Alex was describing how he came up with the lyrics for Zzzzz... So I listened to it again and I realized how much it related to my life. I miss so many things relationships that have been lost and the life that I left behind and the lyrics moved me a lot so I'm posting them for everyone so maybe they'll have the same effect for someone else. 

And I'm up, down, I'm spinning around High and dry and kicked to the ground I'm lost and I'll never be found My lips were much too shy The lines about you, they never rhymed You said I never get things right (I never said I was the best thing for you) And baby, where'd you go?  I need you here tonight Singing myself to sleep And you're still my favorite melody It's been three weeks How long can this go on?  Singing myself to sleep And you're haunting every memory Get out, goodbye Get out of my life Goodnight And you're hot, cold You're not available You run while I lose control I miss you Forever you'll stay gold You know I'm not getting by I've lost it, you're in my mind And everyday's the darkest of my life (life) (I never said I was the best thing for you) Baby, where'd you go?  I need you here tonight Singing myself to sleep And you're still my favorite melody It's been three weeks How long can this go on?  Singing myself to sleep And you're haunting every memory Get out, goodbye, get out of my life 'cause I'm drowning (when I close my eyes) And I'm fallin' (can't breath tonight) And a story I fade to black inside (I never said I was the best thing for you) 'cause I'm drowning (when I close my eyes) And I'm fallin' (can't breath tonight) And a story I fade to black inside (inside) Singing myself to sleep And you're still my favorite melody It's been three weeks How long can this go on?  Singing myself to sleep And you're haunting every memory Get out, goodbye, get out of my life 'cause I'm drowning when I close my eyes And I'm fallin', can't breath tonight And a story I fade to black inside

The greatest thing you'll ever learn is to love and be loved in return

"The only way of loving me baby is to pay a lovely fee"

"My words are my song!"

"The woman I Love... is dead"

There's this great song by Chris Ayers, who you should all check it out, called Vanity and I love the lyrics because it speaks the truth! The truth will set you free!

I've got this habit of looking up
at the sky, to stay rooted
cuz souls don't die, I don't think,
they all just get diluted (it's true and)

and sometimes when I'm staring
I ask “what am I supposed to do with
all this information? –
please give me back my youth.'

baby, your eyes are cold and jaded
come with me, and live unpremeditated
and even though you might lose control of what you meant to try to be
it's only vanity

you blame sinners and cigarettes
but you'd better just get over (all) that
cuz that TV's been real busy
making subtlety extinct 

were we wiser, maybe if we knew
what starts the souring of a view
then we wouldn't all drink so much
to relax away the kinks

baby, this party makes me feel jaded
so lonely and premeditated
and even though we might lose control of what we meant to try to be
it's only vanity

only vanity
it's not what you mean
or how you dream
about the life you'd like to lead
that's all forgotten, for the way it seems

lookin out on a summer's day
is better when it's on the way
than in retrospect, when your intellect
makes sure that you've forgotten

those side affects we can't prevent
like where april through august went
and how we ripened, and were left
here bruised and cold and rotten

baby, slide on into bed; you've made it
walk in sleep, and the risk is eradicated
now you know, you won't lose control of what you meant to try to be
and it's only vanity…

Update!

So, a lot's happened in the past week, I have news chicas! Or chicos as it may be. Chloe was here! And then left some highlights of chloe being here, Obama condoms, cute guys on the street of new york, in depth talks, Wicked, In the Heights, smoky hotel room. I love having Chloe here because she's one of the only people I'd tell everything to because she won't judge me, or get mad at me she just accepts my faults and loves me for my positives. Chloe also went to school with me which was a lot of fun. We also saw Moulin Rouge and I love it! It's great and I'm gonna quote it in my next post so beware!

My friend asked a guy to Sadies for me, but I don't think I want to go so this is gonna be AWKWARD! I had a black affinity group meeting today and it was hilarious and insightful. It really helped me understand the fact that the feelings I have about being a black student at a school where the majority is white is shared among the black community at the school. It also gave me a lot of insight into the minds of the black guys at the school who won't date any of the black girls. So I thought that meeting went quite well! :)

I have a busy weekend because I have a track meet tomorrow and I have some friends coming over on sunday so I'm excited! :) It's been so long since I've posted on here it's ridiculous... maybe i'll give you a little show to make it up UZN UZN UZN (Alexis strips in the background)

Quotes of the Day

Chloe: If Alexis were a step, I'd trip over her

Alexis (me): If chloe were a Oxford Jebers I wouldn't go into her because she's closed... wait... That sounds wrong!

Quotes of the Day

1. S: Alexis can you plug this in underneath the table?

    A: Haha

    N: (Knowing Smile)

    A: Well if that's what you want

2. K: I don't have to pay for anything (Wink Wink)

     S: That's cause you're a cheap whore!

     K: I'm not cheap! I charge 50 dollars!

     Everyone: Um...

     S: That's cheap I'd charge around $200 a hour

     K: What would you do for more than an hour?

     S: You'd be a horrible prostitute

     A: I'd be an escort

     S: Right, because you get paid more, get free dinner and a house

     A: Exactly plus if I'm gonna have sex with you I want more out of it

Whatta Man!

That sounds like such a perverted title but really it just reminded me of a song i listened to today called... (drumroll please!) Whatta Man by EnVouge and Salt & Pepa. "He's so crazy, I think I want to have his baby" I also heard a song by Cute Is What We Aim For that I loved called the Fourth Drink Instinct, "He said it was a one night stand, but the alcohol didn't let her understand. Yeah, he said it was a one night stand, a one night stand. So what made you think he couldn't find a door in the morning? When he found that bed so easily in the dark." "Girlie girlie you're at your best when you're sober" Ok done quoting songs